Ten things I wish I could say to ten different people.
10. Fuck you, too, doucebag. Whatever the hell I did to make you so pissed off at me that I'm now /lower/ than you, you can just shove it. Some best friend you turned out to be.
9. Please please please do not invite her to your wedding. I don't know how we will handle that situation.
8. So much for being 'not lazy' and 'more positive'. Yeah, like I'm going to feel sorry for you because you quit your own damn job, and now don't have enough money? Seriously?
7. I give just about as many fucks towards you as you do to me. Honestly. I don't care if we are friends anymore or not. Just stop calling me your meimei. Clearly, whatever we are now, it's not that.
6. I really wish that you would open up to someone. If you're hurting. Not even me. Just, someone who used to be your friend. They don't deserve that. What is going on? We care, believe it or not.
5. I want to love you. I really do. I just, don't know if I can fully truly love you until you fully and truly love and accept your own child.
4. I love you. You are infuriating at times. But dammit. I love you and I can't imagine spending my life with anyone else but you. Forever and For Always
3. I never liked you. I still don't like you. I probably never will. Sorry. Just the way things are. -shrug-
2. I dream about you sometimes. Every dream I have is very bad. Terrible. Really. Unless I dream about your son growing up to be some schizophrenic, or a homosexual. Those are good dreams I have of your family.
1. I love you. I worry about you, though. With all of the hardships that you face every single day. I just wanna hug you in a blanket of loves and warms.
Nine things about myself.
9. I think I might have some sort of social anxiety problem.
8. I have P.A.N.D.A.S.
7. I might not come off as a romantic, but I really really want to get married someday.
6. I suffered from N.S.S.H.S for five years. And am currently two years free.
5. I danced for fifteen years. And this is the longest I have ever gone without dancing. It's terrifying in a way.
4. I can't sleep without being put to sleep over the phone.
3. I have O.C.P.D. Bad.
2. I'm afraid of the dark.
1. I can wiggle my stomach left to right. It's like, belly dancing, only, side to side, instead of up and down.
Eight ways to win my heart.
8. Be able to hold an intelligent conversation and debate a topic without getting worked up, but also able to accept different opinions.
7. Turn on the lights for me when it's dark and I can't.
6. Talk to me until I go to sleep.
4. Write stories with me.
3. Be able to talk me down off the ceiling.
2. Let me be a housewife. Even if I'm not very good at it.
1. Watch bad movies that I picked out with me, but not hold it against me, and still come back to me afterwards.
Seven things that cross my mind a lot.
7. The future
6. My dove
5. My family
4. Eating
3. Making friends
2. My talent
1. My teachers
Six people who mean a lot.
6. Mommah and Daddy
5. Ryan
4. Boris
3. Wolffin
2. Heza
1. My Dove
Five things I do before I fall asleep.
5. Take my medicine.
4. Adjust my blankets and pillows.
3. Find Moe.
2. Set my alarm for the morning.
1. Call Dove.
Four things I'm wearing right now.
4. Nail polish
3. Glasses
2. Hello Kitty Jamies
1. Panties
Three things that I listen to often.
3. Music
2. Re-runs of old shows
1. Video game walk-throughs
Two things I want to do before I die.
2. Get something published.
1. Know that I made a difference in somebody's life. That I made an impact on a stranger.
One confession.
1. If I could have anything in the world. I've been thinking a lot lately. About, what I really really want. There are two things in this world that I am terrified I will never get. I don't feel like I am asking a lot. But, then again, I guess I am. I'm really scared that I will never have the freedom and option to get married like all of my friends, and I'm afraid that there is nothing that can be done to fix my arm for good.